boys are smelly.

i dont like guys. i like men. sexy men. like hugh grant. ahhhhhhhhhhh omg shoot me im turnin into a boiled banana goin gaga over hugh grant! went for a movie with daph and she was so pissed cus it was "raining sharks and whales", as quoted from queen crank herself. but oh well it was pretty darned fun and arghh i so wanna watch it again! eek i dont mind being fat anymore..damn okay i really really do mind being fat and i just wanna lose weight but there are distractions and temptations like pizza and pringles.

this is very bad. i havent talked to him for such a long time and now we're chatting online. wtf is wrong with him?! and wtf is wrong with me?!?! i've got a very bad feeling that by doing whatever im doing im spoiling things the happy way they are. like, dude it's been almost a year and he doesnt give a damn about anything so why are you still so $@#^! just get! get what? get out! of? the whole thing. it's a WAS thing and you've got an IS thing going on. so just be happy and never look back. but still... aiya whatever la! best solution: keep off guys. boys are smelly.

oh well i was so dumb. i still am dumb i think. but sometimes this is just the way things are. always expect the unexpected-the ultimate mantra. i was just talkng to qiuru (my cousin) about it yesternight-while she was supposed to be studying but we ended up going nuts bout backstreet boys instead. anyway back to the topic: she's not any better off than me and well, we decided that it's " like that one la". oh great pete. i dont want to fuck things up this time around and if i do, i'm gonna screw myself up down left right. i just hate certain guys. question: what the shit is wrong with them? they've got the nicest girlfriends who treat them like they're Zeus-es or smth, who dont flirt around anymore, who believe that things are gonna work out this time. then those guys just gotta drop the bomb and screw things up big time by going around doing stuff that arent supposed to be done and sayin stuff that arent supposed to be said. just what the holy fuck is wrong with you! ugh cant take this no more.

okay sry was just ranting on impulse. not my fault, given the way things are and how screwd they seem to be. but then again God makes things happen for a reason. for every bad thing that happens there must be a great many thing that will happen in time to come. pfft-* gotta run for handbell. sick freak. but whaha im gonna see my MOFO finally after god-knows-how-many-hours!! ttfn <3

countdown: LANDING TOMORROW :) :) :)