smth freaky happened. i've been waking up at night and realize i cant move. it started smth like last yr, but lately it's become more frequent. and for the last 2 or 3 times i've been waking up and realizing i cant move. and its very very terrible because its really scary. and i tried to move again and again yet i cant do it. then i hear this deep laughter, followed by this heavy buzzing noise in my ears. and then my head will feel like its being pressed in frm all directions, and it feels like smth's being sucked out from it. i've been experiencing that for 2 or 3 times. the last time of which was just last week. i thought it's just a nightmare. or the same old scientific theory that people have been telling me : the mind is in a state of fatigue. it has temporary disconnected itself frm the effector neurones, hence nerve impulses cannot be send to our muscles.

i made myself believe in the scientific theory. but guess what, im sure i was wrong. especially after what meiqi told me.

she told me she experienced the exact same thing yesternight, except she didnt hear deep laughter like a man's. she heard boys' laughter.

I WAS SO PANICKED AND WE WERE TALKING ON THE PHONE AND THERES SOME DISTURBANCE ON THE PHONE LINE AND I GOT REALLY FREAKED OUT. AND I TALKED TO ANDREW ON THE CELLPHONE AND HE THINKS I SHOULD TALK TO MY PASTOR. ZAY THINKS THAT ITS DEMONS. AND SO MEIQI AND I WERE REALLY FREAKED OUT OF OUR WITS AND I CALLED CALEB FOR AUNTY LAURA, and thank God for auntie laura. i feel so much better after talking to her.

if God is for me, none can go against me. thank You, Lord. i seek only the spirit of love and of goodness now, for only those are of the Lord's. i love You, Lord. the talk with aunty laura has changed me in a way i cant explain. i will grow strong in my faith.