i love hooyi. sorry hooyi.

i am a bitch. shit! okay i told hooyi the whole thing and she made things worse not because she's ignoring me or swearing at me or anything close to that. its really difficult to put things into words now cos im shaking. i thought i was doing what was the most fair to both of them. but well maybe i thought wrong. it's so difficult to get back the trust! but hooyi offered it back to me with open arms anyway and i love her so so so so so much i wanna break down and cry but i cant even cry now.

today is a completely different day from yesterday. when i woke up this morning i didnt feel so bad after all. cos no.1 : ben wasnt mad. no.2: my old phone was dying anyway. yesterday was just like sending it to an old folks' home. but i was still feeling so effed up about hooyi.

anyway went to school for handbell this morning. supposed to be in school at 9 for handbell. i got there at 9.44. not too bad. way better than last time, when i was like an hour late. apparently, seehooi and jiahui had this betting thing going on. like, they'd bet on what time amanda and i would reach school and whoever got the best timing wins. jiahui bet i'd reach school at 9 40 and seehooi bet i'd reach school at 9 45. -.- . handbell is always so interesting not cos of the bells but cos of the people. seehooi pronounced coklat as cock laet. like wtf man! it was so darned funny when she said, ' eh sandra, see, they put cock laet on the milo cover' i was like cock what what?! and blah i dunno this sounds weird but i dont regret joining handbell..not cos of the bells but cos of the people! :D

yesterday was full of gossip too but cos of all the shit that those fruitcakes caused, i forgot even the excitement gossip can create. qian was showing me all the grad nite pics and OMG its so friggin funny ahaha. and since daph isnt gonna attend grad nite nxt year unless she has vera wang or ralph lauren, we're just gonna get her a daniel yam and replace the tag with our own hand-drawn one instead. my bro's gonna need braces for his teeh and that is so not fair!!! ugh!

poor ben with a proper cellphone but no sim card. whaha. i hope i can see qian and mofo tomorrow graa i miss all my girls already i love them so. i can survive without guys. boys are smelly. i like men. sexy men. like hugh grant. winks-* i feeeeeeeeeeeel good. ttfn. <3