had junk food for dinner. tonight i feel like typing senseless words so i shall just type on until itunes play the end of the last song on my playlist. (i shall put aside the guilt of having not done a whole truckload of work. just for a little while.) mye's coming. i really dont want to flunk any of the subject at all. at first it seems possible. but then come to think of it im pretty hopeless at history and literature. what more econs. the whole jc thing is taking a toll on me. my cough's getting worse. i think im going to die soon. all i feel like doing now is to watch the rain and listen to some good songs. with you right there with me of course

its not because im embarrassed of our relationship, you said. like you, im confused. i dont know why im confused, because it doesnt make sense to be confused about this matter. i dont care about what the others think of me as long as i have you here with me. i dont need the world. the world has nothing good to offer me. today you told me that even if im a lesbian you'll still like me. i think thats really sweet. you made my day just by smiling. i shall never understand how i ever managed without you and your family in my life before. this is weird.