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i dont know how to put it down properly in proper language, and i dont think i make any sense right now, but theres no better feeling than being with you. words do no justice to this feeling. argh!

today is the slackest proper school day ever. i love it! plus, i get to meet boyfriend after school. the downside is that i didnt get to donate blood :[ the doctor said that my blood pressure in the morning was pretty low, so i drank 2 packets of milo, but the pressure only went up by a bit. so i went back after school and my blood pressure was a-ok, but just to be safe i had to drink another packet of lemon-thingy. and just when i was all set to do my part to save a life, the nurse told me i cant donate because my veins are too small. i dont understand why my veins got to be so small!! ugh. i wish they were bigger. but anyway i got 2 of the stress-ball thingamajik. they're super cute :D

food i ate today:
1. chicken katsu (just a lil bit cos it didnt taste good)
2. peach (i love!)
3. macaroni-and-cheese + pringles (they go together very well)
4. eggplant and brown rice and orange

i love peaches!

so tonight i realized something, and it wasnt a very pleasant something. but it doesnt matter. not anymore, at least. it's so scary to trust a guy in that way. and so i made a mistake in doing so more than a year back, but thats not gonna stop me from trying again, and im sure this time everything'll be more than alright. we're all happy the way we are now. [: i love you benny.

going out to meet benny for dinner soon haha yayness! i havent done my blasted gp essay. i cant stand gp. ugh. >:( nevertheless i shall complete it tonight and put it into ms wong's pigeon hole like i promised. today laoshi almost confiscated oli's archie comics (lucky thing she didnt. phew) because dalton was ignorant enough to lean forward from his seat in the back row to try to peep at the archie mag i was reading behind the chinese ke ben. thank God laoshi was in a good mood today hahah. shes much better these days compared to her angsty lady days. and im much better too compared to those days. today i fell asleep only twice during her lesson. haha!

met benny wenny after school and we got ourselves honey glazed chicken frm cold storage. a whole chicken! i think i have a rather big appetite for a girl. which explains my being fat. and today is the first time i realize you can actually show your love by doing 5 squats and 5 jumping jacks in 30 seconds. how wonderfully fascinating! :]

tomorrow is lecture day! i love lecture day! because lecture day = slack day. mindy just showed me a certain somebody's blog and i think its interesting. in a ha-ha-guffaw way.

yayness to:
1.weekends
2.cereal and milk
3.comic strips
4.chocolate
5.snooze
6.muscle aches
7.sexiest man alive

i finally did detention yesterday and i slept thru most of it cos i was so tired after dance. my back and legs and tummy area still hurt, but i like the feeling of having muscle aches cos they gimme a sense of accomplishment. meeting hana and afie in town later. and probly jiaxin and mindy afterwards. dinner at spizza tonight! :] i love my boyfriend.

i think the world is a fairly weird place. what's the biggest number that anybody can come up with?

{you're the beat that my heart skipped }

02 44 :D :D

i hate history. i dont understand why i took history. it doesnt make sense :( its not like i've been taking history my whole life. ugh. i dont want to flunk history for end of yr exam :( history makes people angsty >:( no wonder ford said history is bunk. maybe it really is bunk.

i think o level days were better than schooldays this year. im running out of time to catch up and try to pass my eoy. i dont know how im gonna get everything done within these 9 weeks before the promos. maybe i should have just gone to poly. ugh.

benny = Sexiest Man Alive = LOVE BIG BIG

{i've never had someone who knows me like you do
the way you do!
i've never had someone as good for me as you
no one like you!}

it was a grey sky morning :) i love grey sky mornings :)

im so tired now. my calf muscles are aching and the migraine comes and goes. its irritating. and history is killing me. i dont think i can survive much longer :( im dreading monday. school is so horrible. ive decided to get it. its like the nicest one out of the rest of its kind , even though the tag is a killer. mindy said its a good investment. i think so too. im glad i found it! yayness. im so tired. ugh. and if the pbl readings have eyes, i swear theyre staring at me right now. stupid angsty history stuff.

went to ocs yesterday because its a compulsory j1 thing. its quite a nice place. i like the parade square haha it looked pretty grand even though its really gray. and then we went back to school in a vintage school bus! its really old and yellow and i suspect its going to fall apart soon. but at least the air con blast was good and i got to sleep all the way back to school. after that went to have dinner at second home :D i love you, benny wenny.

dear you,

i feel happy now that my best friend is back from jakarta. heehee :D today is a happy day because it's youth day, which means school is out, which means i got to wake up late. and i got to spend some time with qian today but i hate the town because it's irritating and boring. there's got to be something wrong because there's nothing interesting to buy now and i feel so lazy to spend money. except on food and cab. which is bad, because it'll only mean that i'll get fatter than i already am now. i hope i'll lose weight soon because it's getting pretty bad.

i love my best friend! and the pretty t shirt that he got. i think its really cute. now i dont feel sad and lonely anymore cos best friend is back in town :D happiness is when i get to be with him 60/24/7. i love you, benny. XOXO

i want to age gracefully. having small boobs is actually kinda good cos they wont sag when you're old. i want to age the way audrey hepburn did!

oh and yes, this is a day late, but here it is:

HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY MINDY! I LOVE YOU BUCKETS!