i cant wait to see my mofo on saturday! but before that i gotta attend somebody's wedding. haven't seen mofo for the longest time ever and i miss you so :( ive got so much to tell you la! even though i told u most of it on msn alr but its not the same cos you cant hear the emotions and watch the actions.

history lecture was a killer today :l luckily tomorrow is a good day. im so glad the long weekend is coming. I CANT WAIT!! -silent SCREAM- i feel really tired now i dont know why but my hair is still wet and i dont like sleeping with my hair wet. i thought a lot today, but i cant remember what i thought about now. probly cos my brain's not even functioning properly now.

by the way, colourful too -smiles-

two people who fall in love with each other don't necessarily have to be together. the more i think about it the more it makes sense. "if we get together and we break up we might just end up hating each other like how you hate him and how i hate her now". when two people get together things spiral downwards with a few occassional highs. im not saying that all relationships end up pretty much badly, but thats mostly the case. if the two dont get together, it'll be like replaying the prelude to a relationship over and over gain. and the feelings you get before you actually get together are actually very awesome. the sort you wouldnt trade the world for. so isnt it good this way?

but really, whats love? is it when your heart skips a beat everytime you see him and you cant help but smile, or even laugh out loud? is it when you feel like seeing him in the middle of the night when everybody else is asleep? or is it when you wake up to his hug and feel happy for the rest of the day? but im sure there's more to love than just that. i cant wait for the weekend to come. tomorrow's thursday already!

everybody should just be friends with everybody else. but its not possible, is it?

i dont know why but i'm feeling really upset. for lost loves. for loves that didnt even have a chance to begin. and for many other things. but i dont know why im feeling so upset for. and then i keep thinking about the depressing thing that we were talking about a few days back. scenario:

boy likes girl. girl likes boy. boy didnt tell girl. girl didnt tell boy. another boy likes girl. girl likes the another boy. boy feels sad and stupid.

that is such a waste. i mean it can be the other way round, the girl being the one feeling sad and stupid , you know. and im thinking if im ever going to be stuck in that kind of situation. i wouldnt know what to do. if one of them had said something earlier then they'd both just be happy together. ugh. so annoying.

hana told me afie's sis got married and apparently it was really grand. i dont want a grand wedding. i just a simple church wedding. at st paul's church! haha :)

"sandy, can't you see, im in misery?"

the song's stuck in my head! not my fault cos you've been singing it so much. thank God for you. i wouldnt know what to do without you. come to think of it, you've been there since the first minute everything was spiralling down. its time to really appreciate having you around. maybe you're the Better Thing that God has in store for me.

went back to cedar for garde cheerleading yesterday. maaan i miss being in a girls school. today we folded lotuses during ethics for that lotus project. its super cool! only that my first few lotuses look like cabbages and UFOs.

i think the world is a scary place to live in. most people look really nice on the surface, but i realize that not everybody's truly nice. it's pretty freaky when people tell me the flipside of some people. i'd never have imagine that.

at the end of the day, i think about it, and it never fails to make me smile. :)

"that is why all the girls in town
follow you all around.
just like me,
they long to be,
close to you"

BENNY OLI SANDY
















BENNY OLI SANDY












SANDY OLI :D :D














BENNY:D BOON:D SANDY:D










SANDY, KAILING!

today is a good day to sleep in. i love it's raining outside and the room is super cold and the bed is super cosy. it feels so good! and i love cooping myself up in the room to watch dvds. heheh. next week is gonna be pretty stressful cos of the tests, and i wont be surprised if i flunk that math test. i think there's smth wrong with me cos i just had dinner and im hungry now. but thats ok because im going to have another dinner soon. i love oth! brooke is soooooooo sexy.

i had my 2.4 run last monday, and it felt really weird because my shareleen wasn't there to run together with me :( she's been my running partner for 4 years now and i remembered the first time we didnt walk at all for 2.4 (it was in sec3 i think). it felt like such a great accomplishment ok! i miss shareleen so badly :( 2.4 was okay. minus the suppressed laughters + huge trees around the track + cedar primary school kids. it didnt feel like a normal 2.4 at all. ok i have no idea why im getting so emo over a 2.4 run.

im glad im in st paul's church :D

"Ra-ma la-ma la-ma ka ding a da ding de dong
Shoo-bop sha wad-da wad-da yipp-it-y boom de boom
Chang chang chang-it-ty chang shoo-bop
Dip da-dip da-dip doo-wop da doo-bee doo
Boog-e-dy boog-e-dy boog-e-dy boog-ed-y
Shoo-by doo-wop she-bop
Sha-na-na-na-na-na-na-na yip-pit-y boom de boom
Ra-ma la-ma la-ma ka ding-a de ding de dong
Shoo-bop sha wad-da wad-da yipp-it-y boom de boom
Chang chang chang-it-ty chang shoo-bop
Dip da-dip da-dip doo-wop da doo-bee doo
Boog-e-dy boog-e-dy boog-e-dy boog-e-dy shoo-by doo-wop she-bop
Sha-na-na-na-na-na-na-na yip-pit-ty boom de boom"

i'll never i wont i shall never be able to forget that movie magic moment. after all, it's magic. words aren't adequate enough to describe it.

your kiss is a question i want to spend my whole life answering.

Taken a picture naked? no.
Made out with a member of the same sex? yes.
Danced in front of your mirror? Yes
Told a lie? Yes.
Gotten in a car with people you just met? Yes.
Been in a fist fight? Yes.
Had feelings for someone who didn't have them back? Yes.
Been arrested? No.
Left your house without telling your parents? Yes.
Ditched school to do something more fun? Yes.
Slept in a bed with a member of the same sex? Yes.
Seen someone die? No.
Kissed a picture? Yes.
Slept in until 3? Yes.
Lain on your back and watched cloud shapes go by? Yes.
Played dress up? Yes.
Fallen asleep at work/school? Yes.
Felt an earthquake? Yes
Touched a snake? Yes.
Ran a red light? No.
Had detention? Almost
Been in a car accident? Yes.
Pole danced? No.
Been lost? Yes.
Sang karaoke? Yes.
Done something you told yourself you wouldn't? Yes.
Laughed until something you were drinking came out your nose? Yes.
Caught a snowflake on your tongue? No.
Kissed in the rain? Yes.
Sang in the shower? Yes.
Got your tongue stuck to a pole? No.
Ever gone to school partially naked? No.
Sat on a roof top? Yes.
Played chicken? Yes.
Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on? No.
Been told you're hot by a complete stranger? No.
Broken a bone? No.
Mooned/flashed someone? No.
Forgotten someone's name? Yes.
Slept naked? Yes.
Blacked out from drinking? Yes.
Played a prank on someone? Yes.
Felt like killing someone? Yes.
Made a parent cry? Yes.
Cried over someone? Yes.
Had sex more than 5 times in one day? No.
Had/Have a dog? Yes.
Been in a band? No.
Drank 25 sodas in a day? No.
Shot a gun? No.

i do not like the feeling of being confused

mondays are gloomy days. first of all, there's monday blues. to make things worse, monday is the worst and longest day of schooldays because lessons end at 5. thirdly, the last period is pe. i can just bang my head on the wall. luckily i didnt have to do pe today because of my cramps!! :D i know i shouldnt be sounding happy about cramps, but sheesh they got me away from pe! samu sprained his ankle and chris cut his leg during pe today. pe is a dangerous game. people should stay away from it. and then it poured. as in, SERIOUSLY POURED. the lightnings were so scary, but the rain was a pretty sight :) people were actually taking pictures of it from the grand stand. i love the grand stand.

ptm was boring. ugh. im so tired now i cant think straight, but im done sending the pics to people. pfft. i love my class. nick went away from cj for real this time :( i still think hes really stupid for doing that, no offense nick! u know im just kidding la. but i think you're gonna be even more stressed in sp.

things got miserable yesterday. i feel guilty for making him feel this way. is it my fault. i dont know la. but somehow i feel like its my fault. but if i do it against my heart's wishes, then wont it be a greater crime? i know alot of peeps are gna think im a bitch or smth. but what the heck. im over that. ok i dont know what im typing about anymore. i cant keep my eyes focused. im gonna snooze.