it's my party and i'll cry if i want to

phew- just came back from qian's place and im so tired! omgness cant believe she's 16 alr! whahah okay she's not 16 YET until TUESDAY. but what the heck she's almost there and i still gotta wait till may! no fair! but anyway it was quite fun over at qian's place and i couldnt stop laughing cos of shar! plain retarded! but it was damn fun (: and then i drew hiphopgirl her geisha lips and they had to hold her in order to take a picture of her and so it ended up looking like a rape scene. el dropped my phone and the whole thing was totally dismantled ugh but it's pretty alright now. i hope. oh well. venetia gave me a lift home whahah but we had to wait for 20 minutes for a bloody cab. phew okay am rather tired. i hope qian likes the stuff we got her cos i do!! a lot of people who were supposed to turn up didnt.but it was rather fun cos of the people who were present. and we were so stuffed with food im still so full. argh cant wait for chinese o's to be over! and the May babies already decided what to do for our birthdays (: a hint: it's damn cool la. i love princess, jojo, tubby and cookie so much!! but i love jojo the best!! i still cant believe MOFO wore a dress today haha but she looked really cute.


went to watch The Aviator with ben yesterday. omgness. i think everybody should watch that cos it's so so so nice!! in a bleak sort of manner but still, it's really good! and leo is such a good actor with such a good body (EEK!). certain parts were rather twisted and sick though. agh. GO WATCH IT!!!! i wanna watch it again! i indulged in a lot of sinful stuff yesterday. like a mini ben and jerry's cookie dough, a large mos fries and coke. and im putting on weight it's so gross argh. irritating shiat! it feels so good to see ben again after so many days. and i hate to know that i gotta wait so many more days till the next time im gonna see him again. how trashy. ugh. ooh and we saw b***j** queen today at taka. she's got really weird friends man. and really weird clothes. and hair. -shudders- okay i shall not be mean. but what the heck. i was stating facts.

i miss ben so freakin much graa. and im so glad that he's mine heheh. sod off la he's mine. he's taken. booked. for life. okay sorry people (: im so happy. im so glad. im so high. im so excited. iloveyou iloveyou iloveyou iloveyou iloveyou iloveyou iloveyou iloveyou iloveyou iloveyou iloveyou iloveyou iloveyou iloveyou iloveyou!

I cant get enough of you baby

I cant get enough of you baby

Yes it's true

Baby yes it's true

Whenever we kiss I get a feeling like this

I get a feeling I can never go on

My heart cries out- more baby

It feels so good

I wish there was more of you, more of you to touch

I cant get enough of you baby

I cant get enough of you baby

Right or wrong

Baby right or wrong

When you had to go

I hated the thought, I only wish the night was twice as long

my heart cries out- more baby

I love you so much I wish that there was, more of you to touch

I cant get enough of you baby ( cant get enough of you baby)

I cant get enough of you baby ( cant get enough of you baby)

I cant get enough of you baby ( yeah!)

i want a flawless complexion! but how can i get it? like, how many gazillion skin-care'products do

i have to get before i achieve that? rhetorical. heard ellen (my cousin) lost her phone AGAIN. this is the number 2463764878 time already i think and she spent around thou over bucks on phones alone for the few months that she's in sg. haiyer i miss ballet. this is nuts okay i wanna dance again. but a little too late huh. cant believe i was the ballet teacher's pet hahah! i miss the times jessica (my partner) and i were made to demo in front of the class. and i miss the tutus.

the pretty tie-hair thinggies. the stockings! i had so many of them ugh! okay this is getting worse. -sigh- i miss ballet. i was telling my mum that when she was here and she was like, 'you wanted to quit ballet yourself what.' AGH so mean la. but at least i know what to do with the long break after O's now. i shall take up a new language and dance classes. yayness babeh.

going church tomorrow! hopefully pastor prince is back already! oh and i saw jan and linus at cine yesterday. they look so cute together la. i realize that getting presents for people cause a headache. but headaches are better than migraines. i shall tell people what i want for my birthday so it wont be so headache-y for them heheh. i am so nice.

squish la

i cant stand thursdays. stupid jogging sessions. who came up with that stupid idea anyway. stupid 3 rounds around the school. stupid jailbird making so much noise to ms wong. stupid jelani cutting his toenails ( they're black and gross btw) behind the classroom block. daph is gonna find and dig the grave of the dude or dudette who came up with that idea and scold him/her. i shall help her with the flashlight.

after school dismissal el and i went for chem remedial. after which we went to find mdm faridah for the ss thing. and after which i went for handbell. my left hand is still sore from shaking and holding the bell for 7 counts for phantom of the opera. stupid phantom. but i still love it. and i finally get to go home at 6. -phew- oh and i saw qian's sister at the foyer. she looked so cute and clueless in her choir t shirt.

squish. bogart. i dont like soft hair. it gets messy so easily. i shall go cut my hair. soon. should i? and yeehaw cant thank qian enough for deciding to bring me to spa esprit for the strawberry massage thing. omgness still cant believe im gonna have full body strawberry massage. how rockable is that? ok rhetorical.

In open fields of wild flowers,

she breathes the air and flies away

She thanks her Jesus for the daises and the roses

in no simple language

Someday she'll understand the meaning of it all

He's more than the laughter or the stars in the heavens

As close a heartbeat or a song on her lips

Someday she'll trust Him and learn how to see Him

Someday He'll call her and she will come running

and fall in His arms and the tears will fall down and she'll pray,

"I want to fall in love with You"

yes Jesus loves me! yes Jesus loves me! yes Jesus loves me! for the Bible tells me so (: (el, remember this?? hahah)

yehyeh. still in a dilemma. should i or should i not take the HSK test?! ugh. and there are so many tests coming i think the noodles in my head are already fried. no, burnt. and then there's COMMONWEALTH ESSAY TO DO OMGNESS CAN I DONT DO IT CAN I JUST GIVE IT TO HUEY TO DO IT I REALLY DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO ABOUT IT AND GRAA I AM SO NOT HAVING AN INSPIRATION. that feels good (:

T.G.I.F tomorrow i am so sick of emath lessons. bah. and i realize there's alot of discussion going on about sleeping now. wowethemy.

eat my piak gum

school was fine. okay rather tiring actually. luckily chinese was slack period cos mdm koh wasnt in school ho ho ho happy new year! and we were al eating Piak Gum during chinese lesson. well um actually it's the squeezingly fizzy piglets im referring to here. but shar calls it the Piak Gum. reason being they look really piak-ed. actually they really do look piak-ed. im bringin another pack of Piak Gum tmr to survive emath lesson. and omgness did i mention the packet's lime green in color? boy i am so obsessed with green. GO GARDE POWER HEHEH ((:

aikido was okay. partly cos sensei was in a good mood. and i learnt how to tackle an attacker attacking from behind whaha!!

Red, yellow, green, red, blue blue blue

Red, purple, green, yellow, orange, red red

Red, yellow, green, red, blue blue blue

Red, purple, green, yellow, orange, red red

Blend them up and what do you get?

Ceries, chartous, and aqua

Mauve, beige, and ultra marine, and every colour in between

Hazo ka li ka no cha lum bum

one of my all time favourites!! shar and i are like so addicted to this song. and i think im addicted to singing. should've just stayed in choir la aiya! and yuan and i were singing the minnie driver's La x20 song during handbell. and the songs we're ringing now are rather nice. except for the arabian nights song. but that was fine cos its so freakin amusing it makes leona and i laugh every single time we play it. and whahah i think mien is in trouble. poor mien. i hope she gets sacked -looks away-

seehooi was showing off her LAMPARD stuff again. I DONT CARE I ALSO WANT HIM. and i want JAMES as well. how can busted do this to me? cheat my feelings. but i still love them. give me my james. and i'll leave you alone in peace. sigh. how can this be? how can lampard be so cute? how can james be so hot? im getting fever already.

REVENGE OF THE CURLIES

HELLO! I AM SO HAPPY I DONT EVEN KNOW WHY BUT YEAH IM HAPPY. AND I LIKE TO LAUGH BECAUSE 1 MINUTE OF LAUGHTER = 40 SIT UPS. HEHEH. I LOVE MY GIRLS. THEY ARE THE MOST EXCITING AND HAPPENING SHIAT ABOUT TOWN. OKAY NOT SHIAT BUT THE BESTEST BESTEST CHICKSTAS.

phew okay.im still high. yayness. everybodys turning 16 this year so there's gonna be alot alot of parties. i love parties. and i had tons of fun at gloria's party. partly cos of the swing-swing clap clap game. haha oh man it was FUN! ((: and there's gonna be a disco party next week!! whaha. what should i wear man? stick sequins all over my body as daph suggested? or wear mini disco balls in my hair? or hang torchlights all over my clothes? whaha so so so exciting -SILENT SCREAM- thing is, there's alot of presents to get and i dont know where to start. okay maybe i do. blah. where the cash at, baby?!

went out with sop and sel today it was really fun! maaan i miss those times so so much!! but everybody's happy now and that's all that matters (: think i should go out with my girls more often cos WOOT i get so high babeh! i love my girls la. they're like the bestest you can find. monstars of the galazy. chickstas of the century. hottest f***s about town. and you guys are so so retarded and shallow sometimes i wonder why the heck am i friends with such people. and i dont wanna know the answer to that. i refuse to acknowledge that im a shallow and a retard. ...okay fine fine i am. YAYNESS happy people are the hottest and the coolest. i love my girls. i really do. my MOFO and i are gonna wear something totally radical for next week's party. REVENGE OF THE CURLIES!!

still got ss and amath to complete but holy macaroni! shouldnt think about it now. life is good life is great life is unbelievable oh yeah oh yeah life is so beautiful oh yeah oh yeah life is unbelievable.

i cant wait to get 16!! then i can do all the legal stuff that a 16 year old can do legally. but then again i dont wanna get old so quick! i dont wanna grow up! i wanna stay with jeremy sumpter in neverland forever and ever amen. but then again i dont want to. i wanna stay 21 forever. hey man isnt forever 21 like the name of that clothes-place-thinggy? ok rhetorical question im like typing to myself again. oh wells.


[ birdie. austraaliaaa` opqrstuvwxyz says:
and revenge of the curlies will STRIKE BACK AGAIN and
AGAIN

okay okay THANKS in advance for nice people who are inviting me to their rockable parties this year. i love parties. just like sir toby. radical party animal man! (: love you, you, you and all-the-other-yous. wait a minute. who's claire?

taupok-y

i love wednesdays (: because cause! because wednesdays are short days! because i had a 2-hr nap in the noon today! because i exchanged peater for gimmie jr today! because we put up the stuff on the notice board today and it looks really nice now! (we're still gonna blow up papa shakespeare's picture. whatever man. -does the rg thing-)

ms chng is so cute i love her so! she's just so adorable! and i have this still-shot of her smiling with the disintegrating chem book in her hand and her hair all over her face playing at the back of my mind hahah. anyway i think daph was really good at roleplaying as sensei during ce today. one look at her touching her stomach and u know she's acting as sensei. talking about sensei i just realized that there's aikido tmr. which means, no laughing, no talking, no looking around, and no scratching. and all of us gotta be serious. cos sensei only likes serious and gracious cedarians. one of his personal beliefs: nobody likes funny people. oh dang. direct clash. i like funny people.

i dont really like thursdays ): because! i'll only get home at 7 and there's aikido and jogging and emath (i think). thanks but no thanks to stupid Popular's sarcasm. i hope her asshole closes up. then maybe that will shut her trap. but then again, considering the fact that ben's comin back tmr (yehyehyeh) and that there's ytf tmr, i guess tomorrow's gonna be pretty alright, if not good. okay this is weird but im thinking about taupok-y.

word of the month: taupok-y
meaning: like huey
uses: describe huey

i think huey's really fascinating. i mean i'd do anything to learn her incredible technique of sleeping-in-class-and-still-know-how-to-answer-the-teachers'-questions. what an art man. and her R-E-S-P-E-C-T -does hiphop girl's dance- poem was hilarious. in a good way, i hope. and mdm lum is getting me really stressed. the way she talks about amath and extra amath classes makes it look as if we're taking The O's next week or smth. condemn the O's! O's is damned! O's as in GCE, not Oreo O's ( i feel like eating cereal right here right now). she is so encouraging about us getting amath right i've never felt more stressed. and this is only week 3 for pete's sake. there's many many more weeks to come before this year ends ugh. i dont even wanna start thinking about mid years and prelims. and then the real deal. ok ok scary.

i miss my girls. going out with sop and sel and maybe vivian this sat for cny shopping -wiggles fingers-. i have yet to get my starbucks tumbler i cant wait omgness this is so cool all of us will have the same water bottle hahah. just like uniform (: oh dang why cant ben just come back ugh. why the canoeing and rafting? why the skipping of dinner just to bathe? but that is very very good and very very healthy because i cant stand smelly people. gross. pokay gonna sleep already even though it's like only 9. since,

more sleep = bigger eyes,

and

me= needs bigger eyes,

let's assume, by daphe's theorem, that

me -> sleep more -> bigger eyes

yayness. if only. i hope this works.blub.

hee hee hee haw haw haw (:

oh dang gotta write a 2 minute speech on receiving the model student of the month award for mrs foo. not that i actually am gonna receive such an award. the moon will probly be purple when that happens. and i still gotta practice my binomial theorem. mdm lum is actually really fierce when it gets down to home assignments.blah- school stuff is getting me really busy and i hate to say this but i can already feel the stress. had chinese and amath test today and oh gawd they're really cranky. qian and i were smiling through the whole of chinese test-cos it's a breeze. literally. i was flipping through the pages and i could only fill up a few of the blank spaces. OH WELL. (:

mum went back yesterday. ben left for the stupid klang place yesterday. AGH. how agonizing. i miss both of them so much. and ben wont be back till thursday GRAA!!

yesterday was tiring. and emath was reaaaaaaaally s-l-ow. hiphop girl was writing and passing empty notes around. empty as in empty in meaning, as in hello-there-bye-bye kind of notes. shar and el were drawing smily faces on bits of eraser and throwing them at huey. hahahah. handbell was okay. i went AS 2 super early to get my emath stuff done. after which i rang bells -sigh- the new syf song they picked ( nocturne in C minor) reminds me of arabian nights. dont ask me why. ask leona. only she understands. but they're keepin maple leaf so it's alright cos i like that song (: and i think we're playing kiss the girl (EEK!) and phantom of the opera (DOUBLE EEK!) for speech day.

went spotlight with shar and sarah today to get class stuff. we're gonna have a midsummer night's dream theme for the Monstars' notice board! the midnight blue and forest ground green cloths we got are really really nice!! heheh i cant wait to put them up. i hope the class looks good this year. shar and i were talkin about the stuff we did in lower sec again and i realize i miss sec 2 alot!! not that it's not fun being a senior now. i mean sec 2 was really fun and trashy cos it was the year of short skirts, full-blast corniness and..yeah other fun stuff. yada yada.

Now I stuff you with bread
It don't hurt, 'cause you're dead!
And you're certainly lucky you are
'Cause it's gonna be hot in my big silver pot!
Tout-aloo mon poisson
Au revoir

les poissons les poissons hee hee hee haw haw haw. not dat i loof ze fish so mooch. feelin rather cynical heheheh.

shoot me

currently feeling especially effed up. why do i have to be such an ignorant irritant and irritate the hell out of everybody? but it is especially irritating to irritate him cos i get irritated by myself too in the end. ugh bloody bla. just shoot me. i so hate this. he's leaving for malaysia tomorrow to spend nights with the snakes till thursday. and if i dont miss him then im not octavia. wtf i just gotta screw everything up down left right.

i wont do certain things from now on. i wont speak in certain tones from now on. i wont behave in certain manners from now on. i wont do anything to let you have one less reason to love me.

i've taken 2 away from your list. 1 more is gonna be the pits for me. fuck i hate myself for being such a screwed up ungrateful bitch.

POOT you TOOT

hellow hellow! (: i just registered the word "POOT" so as of now, it is a copyrighted trademark and you will be sued if you use it illegally. and daph wanted to register the phrase "fuck off la" but she realized that she'll get into trouble if this dude called Off comes knocking on her door and say "hullow you can so fuck me now". okay oop.

today is...okay. i guess. i dont know hahah. okay maybe it wasnt as great as i wanted it to be but it was...okay. i realize i like to come online. ALOT. cos theres a lot of people to talk to and alot of things to talk about. if i were to do this on the phone my mouth would probly be rotten by now.

mum flying back to indo on monday uh-oh. and i heard afie lost her cellphone again that bodogoat. to mofo: I CAN BE YOUR SUPERMAN

flu bug

im dying inside and nobody knows it but me.

it's so nice and im so addicted to the song! thank god for babyface for singing such a song. im feeling rather random at the moment. and light headed. sheesh. okay so i skipped school today cos im down with flu and its so terrible. i cant smell and taste things properly. what is this?! and i slept the whole morning only to wake up at half past 12. then i went to meet ben at around 2 plus. all the sushis at sakae are not very pretty today. they looked rather pale. like they're down with flu as well or something. so i didnt have much. the colourful plates totalled up to only 11 in the end, with ben scoring most of the sushis. hmpf. after that we went to watch national treasure at cine. the babe is reallay freakin hawt man!

so i missed double chem periods today. but daph said all the prac stuff can be found in the text. crossing my fingers and hoping she's right. and qian is warning me about attire on monday. i shall watch my attire. from the earrings to the socks. then dahdah can't pick on me and be sarcastic anymore. and i dont wanna end up in RC.

ok kind of tired alr. shall write more when i feel like it. lampard lampard wherefore art thou?

all i ask of you

No more talk of darkness
Forget these wide-eyed fears
I'm here
Nothing can harm you
My words will warm and calm you
Let me be your freedom
Let daylight dry your tears
I'm here
With you, beside you
To guard you and to guide you

Say you love me every waking moment
Turn my head with talk to summertime
Say you need me with you now and always
Promise me that all you say is true
That's all I ask of you

Let me be your shelter
Let me be your light
You're safe
No one will find you
Your fears are far behind you

All I want is freedom
A world with no more night
And you
Always beside me
To hold me and to hide me

Then say you'll share with me one love,
One lifetime
Let me lead you from your solitude
Say you want me
And you need me
Beside you
Anywhere you go, let me go too
That's all I ask of you

Say you'll share with me one love
One lifetime
Say the word and I will follow you
Share each day with me,
Each night, each morning
Say you love me
You know I do
Love me, that's all I ask you
Love me, that's all I ask of you

eek mama i'm so stuck on phantom of the opera!! the good and bad phantom and the hot babe and the hot dude. and their costumes mostly. okay i feel like im so busy today argh. it was because of the stupid yingyongwen thingy and the bloody emath timed assignment i swear! after that i felt so stressed cos i gotta rush all the way to the family place thingamajig on the second floor for health check up, so that all of us can have plenty of time to go gazing.

omg i miss gazing so much!! all of us still miss far east starry but wheelock's fine too. ..but far east starry is still the best! stupid subway. EEK the familiar smell of coffee just gets me high okay. now wtf. whoever heard of people getting high on coffee beans?! but then again. let me tell you somethin only the people in the know will know. it is not the in thing to smoke coffee beans (instead of dope) and to get high on rhumba frapp (instead of shots(ok maybe i change my mind abt the getting high on shots part.its still in)). and all of us decided to get THAT cute little starbucks tumbler thing. its like whoa how hot and cool man. what to do. we rock rock.

i still have got so much to do! ugh look at this:
1. e math (by tmr)
2. a math (by tmr)
3. chem (by nxt lesson)
4. chinese almanac 1A before 18 jan (nxt tues!!omfg!)
5. chinese tingxie 4A chapter one ( by friday)
6. 12th night personal response (by nxt lesson. stupid malvolio. go f urself la)

oh and daph and i are exchanging our gimmie jr. and peater mclawn respectively so that we can both get more songs. there are risks involved tho. the others' (qian, mofo, hooyi) iTunes are so screwd they erased all the existing songs in their pods. only daph's and mine work well. as usual. why? -knowing look- cos we rock rock and we're in the hot and cool band.

okay enough of nonsense. am currently down with flu and dry eyes and sore throat. yehyeh jeremy's sending nice songs again. so is genxian. so is zay. yehyehyeh. blah tired. gotta memorize anion stuff and chinese characters.

i miss ben alr! freak out.

GUESS WHO! ((:

hello people! okay, xiao man is too lazy to update so i'm doing it for her. so she's sitting on her bed and trying to complete her zhuowen now. however, she wants to sleep.

SO, i'll give you guys a clue who am i. i'm at her house uploading songs. hahahaha. okay, i think everyone knows now. anyhow, her compter has like 1000 over songs and i'm amazed at the how untidy her itunes is. i just had to rename her songs for her. haha. she has like so many songs repeatedly copied.

alrightly then, i shall run now. BYE KIDS! ((:

move your body so sexy nice and slow

ok tiring day i am so freaking tired cos it is so tiring. heart foundation performance was okay. people actually came up and said it was a good performance. but then again they do that all the time. the speeches before the performance was so so dull i couldnt help but fall asleep. and according to yuan my head was "lolling around". sounds rather gross dont you think. but seriously the dude who gave the speech should read Speeches for Dummies or go for a Tone Operation cos his tone is really flat. really monotonous. like a fan.

didnt even have dinner until i got home and im so tired i actually ate a kinder surprise and 2 kitkat fingers. whahah and guess wat i got a sitting-on-a-sled-and-spraying-water snoopy from the kinder surprise. i forgot where the rest of my kinder surprises are. argh. how irritating. and daph told me her mom got a wangleehom album. when i first saw the message i thought she was talkin about some weird dude or band so i went like ' who the hell is wangle hoom?!' until i read the second part of her message which was smth along the line of starting to listen to chinese songs cos wang lee hom is so cute. how shallow. but i agree with her. cute guys have good vocals. its a natural thing la.

didnt do chinese. nor did i do e math. heck la. bochap. blah. another week on the way. luckily i dont have handbell tmr. wheheh good luck to all the sec 1s coming for audition (if there are any..ok ok seriously there will be a lot cos our performance at induction was so impressive.honestly.) i shall go get my big water bottle tomorrow and i wont lose this one. people have tendencies to lose their ez links. or wallets. or cellphones. or boyfriends. i have a tendency to lose my water bottles. that is so loser. but its okay. daph is my rock rock. i am her rock rock. cos we really rock more than rocks do. dar dar love dear dear. we rock rock. okay sheesh thats smth daph came up with. how EEEEE but nvm.

rock rock. schrock. frock. cockroach. ok no link.

bochap. jangan chap lah.

hellow hellow! this is the first week of school and already im so busy. and tired. so not enough sleep. new year resolution: sleep more. thanks shar, for that pointer. conclusion at the end of Week 1 : i do not like ms leong of e math. i am going to love maths and sciences. i love monstars. i am addicted to malay stall's rice with curry chicken plus extra gravy.

went for bible study with shalom (and ben) just now. maan i just love sitting down there and listening to God's word. it just makes me feel so happy and at peace and basically just very very great. i shall lead a bochap life now. i'll only chap myself with guarding my heart against fear. God'll guard me against everything else.

ugh. okay gotta snooze. induction ceremony tomorrow. heart foundation gala dinner the day after tomorrow. whats this?! why the *toot* am i working a 7 day week?!?! pokay ttfn. <3

shut up, bird.

sick freak. was trying to do my english research on FEMINISM until afie bugged me with this hyper interesting url. tsk. its just great. -smiles- but i shall finish up my english and other subjects by tonight.

school was pretty great, surprisingly. it's the people, i swear! some changes made to the class com this yr. hiphop girl is now the monitress (if not monstress) and she started this thinggy whereby all of us gotta say 'yes?' to every '4M' that she says. weird hiphop girl. and nurul's her assistant. its only the beginning of the yr and alr i can sense the oomph! um the new emath teacher is freakin amusing not only because she speaks so s--l--o--w--l---y, and softly, she's also a true blue avid fan of POP-ular. dont ask. we're all just thinkin that she's got this major crush on this dude workin at popular.

recess was fun! cos daph kena jab. -victory dance- all of us bitched openly about her in front of her. hah! see how much more she can jab us in this yr's xmas cards! and afie, mofo and i all had the rice and curry thinggy omgomgomg i've been craving for it since so long ago eek! i realize i have this bad habit of shrieking when im excited. is that irritating or is that irritating. rhetorical. dont answer.

class motto: BE GOOD, MONSTARS!
comment: what kinda weird motto is that?! overly generalized but well -winks- we shall be good. anytime, anywhere, anyhow.

monstars are lookin as good as ever, if not better. some have got new bangs. some have got bigger bags. some changed the colors of their braces (omg i want that!). others have hot and cool specs -hint hint- but we're still the sexiest, hottest, coolest, um horniest anti-triplets. no offense, sacred cow.

i love the thinggys that daph, hooyi, afie, mofo and qian got me for xmas! the box is so so so pretty i am so jealous of it just cos it is so freakin gorgeous! The horny bean Thing is kinda haiyer-whatever-la-! but its real cute haha. qian's stuff are the best cos they are sooooooooo cute and soooooo practical. i love! i love! yo da woman man!

so sorry about anisha's dad. i feel weird. like its just so..sudden. i dont know how to react to this. i'll never take things for granted ever again. life is just too short for this random act of nonchalance. seems that everything is more beautiful if you take the time to just sit and stone and think back and think forward and appreciate them.

sweet lips, sweep my off my feet. fly me to the moon and back. think back, think forward, and back again. of jeans, phonecalls and chocolates. of snooze, laughter and booze. of the touch, the kiss and the tears. all these are but, the reminder of the love this heart is beating for -* oh dang octavia whats with the lingo deal. (:

2005 la dee dah!

MERRY NEW YEAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! MAY NEXT YEAR BE FULL OF HOT GUYS AND OTHER BLESSINGS!!! 6 A1s WAIT FOR ME! DONT PANGSEH ME!

i love ben i love ben. bens my man. bens my man. bens my man. bens my man. bens my man. bens my man. i cant get enough of him. eek. these 2 mths have been the most wonderful and the bestest of 2004. whats done cant be undone. ugh. i still cant believe i did all those silly stuff yesternight. argh thats it. no more drinking for me la mama. what the hell man. cat went nuts too. cant believe i puked on THAT SHIRT!!!!!! i mean it's...THAT SHIRT!!!! ugh. how thick can i get even when im unconscious. okay hold on that sounds wrong somehow but never mind. spent the night at the service hotel and then cat's friends sent us home early in the morning. got home at around 9 and then i snoozed till 11 when i decided to check my cellphone. and then i calld ben and talkd to him for a bit before both of us decide to sleep some more. woke up at around 2 in the noon and then ben calld. decided to eat at sakae cos we were freakin hungry. but then we realized that theres no eat-all-you-can on weekends and public holidays. blah whatever. too hungry to care about eat-all-you-cans.

okay so everybody's going ben is such a nice guy! esp cat's friends. and esp after what happend last night. im lucky/ diabetic/ madly happy. sigh. what to do. at the risk of sounding cheesy, he's an answer to my prayer. ...really!! and so much more than that. okay its kinda weird typing all these stuff on my blog so agh! better stop it now. but okay one last time. ben is the man. my man. whaha (:

i love sasha's nickname: (: NEVERMIND. life is too short to care about homework. HOW TRUE!! oh wells. i'll just get screwed up down left right when school starts on monday. haha. and handbell is really driving me to the ends of my tolerance level. i cant believe i'll be busy with bells 5 out of 7 days of the week. im so gonna miss ben. like freakinmuch. i'll tell of how i suffer from benjy-dictis syndrome. IF i survive the week. pray hard people.

oh yes and i watched meet the fockers yesterday with kyna. omygosh its so funny everybody (even those under 16) should watch it. went esplanade to meet auds and smily and alvin after that. however, due to the lack of ideas on what to do there, we went back to town. walked around aimlessly for a bit. and then ben and i went away.

what a great way to start this new year. 2005's gonna be great. i can feel it in my bones. eek! love you people!! ttfn. <3