getting back episode 2

manda- yes boys are smelly aha hope u get ur dream phone :)

daph- hellow back, friend. how are you? i am going to see you tomorrow aha you die. im sry.

qian- love you many many many.

mofo- woot! Hot and Cool Band is The Band man! i miss you so much mofo

seehooi- ah yes yes so now it's Harry and Frank, no longer Harry and Valentino.

daryl- s'good. s'good.

mummie- mooother! we just cant get enough we just cant get enou-ough! such a cool song for a cool mom like ya. let u listen nxt time.

P of Give Up On School- okay that sounds really bad i do not. i repeat, i do not want to imagine arjunan in pink! but it's more of the nyc feel rather than the yellow.

COUSIN

okay fine so i look like i am his cousin. i should ask my mum if i have any aunt or uncle who incidentally has a son called benjamin (bleurgh!) gimme some sugar i am your neighbor! totally drained now. went shopping with my cousin and my aunt. like, whoa omg as if she's never shopped in years! but it was really fun and eek i just love spending time with her whoahaha. luckily shes not goin OZ anymore - qian and daph in the bckgrnd: OMG THE CLOTHES!- oh my goodness sometimes i ask myself why i have such shallow girlfriends. but then again, it is shallow to ask such questions. i love my girls. i dont give no shit about no guys (okay maybe just one). woot! handbell was fine with just 14 people. i cant believe so many pontang today's prac. but it was more of a bonding session rather than a practice. sigh- unpredictability carries an essence of bittersweetness. okay dont ask me where that came from it just popped into my head. i bet qian can see that thought bubble haha. dang im gonna crash the bed already i love me so much haha. you know, i might be his cousin. ttfn <3

i love hooyi. sorry hooyi.

i am a bitch. shit! okay i told hooyi the whole thing and she made things worse not because she's ignoring me or swearing at me or anything close to that. its really difficult to put things into words now cos im shaking. i thought i was doing what was the most fair to both of them. but well maybe i thought wrong. it's so difficult to get back the trust! but hooyi offered it back to me with open arms anyway and i love her so so so so so much i wanna break down and cry but i cant even cry now.

today is a completely different day from yesterday. when i woke up this morning i didnt feel so bad after all. cos no.1 : ben wasnt mad. no.2: my old phone was dying anyway. yesterday was just like sending it to an old folks' home. but i was still feeling so effed up about hooyi.

anyway went to school for handbell this morning. supposed to be in school at 9 for handbell. i got there at 9.44. not too bad. way better than last time, when i was like an hour late. apparently, seehooi and jiahui had this betting thing going on. like, they'd bet on what time amanda and i would reach school and whoever got the best timing wins. jiahui bet i'd reach school at 9 40 and seehooi bet i'd reach school at 9 45. -.- . handbell is always so interesting not cos of the bells but cos of the people. seehooi pronounced coklat as cock laet. like wtf man! it was so darned funny when she said, ' eh sandra, see, they put cock laet on the milo cover' i was like cock what what?! and blah i dunno this sounds weird but i dont regret joining handbell..not cos of the bells but cos of the people! :D

yesterday was full of gossip too but cos of all the shit that those fruitcakes caused, i forgot even the excitement gossip can create. qian was showing me all the grad nite pics and OMG its so friggin funny ahaha. and since daph isnt gonna attend grad nite nxt year unless she has vera wang or ralph lauren, we're just gonna get her a daniel yam and replace the tag with our own hand-drawn one instead. my bro's gonna need braces for his teeh and that is so not fair!!! ugh!

poor ben with a proper cellphone but no sim card. whaha. i hope i can see qian and mofo tomorrow graa i miss all my girls already i love them so. i can survive without guys. boys are smelly. i like men. sexy men. like hugh grant. winks-* i feeeeeeeeeeeel good. ttfn. <3

fuck you up down left right

stupid motherfuckers fuck you up down left right you make so freaking sick i hope your assholes disappear and your dicks turned inside out.

i'm feeling so bad but i dont think it's any help at all. i am so sorry for what happened but i can't make it un-happen. why the hell?! motherfuckin son of a bitch cocksucking ah bengs. those messages are like literally the only trace of him left in my life and this is so fuckin screwd i feel like setting my hair on fire. it's supposed to be a great day. this is not supposed to happen. argh supposed to. fuck to supposed to. am i the dumbest living fuckshit or what. it's supposed to be a happy day dude after 12 days but this shit just gotta happen. i really dont know what to say anymore. dont ever play daytona again. dont ever go arcade again. and i dont even frequent arcade. this is like one of those days. and i screw things up so badly like, do i ever get anything right at all? i hope i wont fuck things up again.

i hope you're not mad at me dude. i really dont want this to happen. fuck i feel so bad. MY PHONE!!! HIS TWO PHONES!! HIS CASH!!! argh damn this whole shit. and there's hooyi feeling so bad i feel even worse cos i dno how to make her feel better. and that guy is one hell of a screwed up psycopath. i hate him. get a fucking life. screw this shit.

here we go again ah ah how can i resist you?

thing no. 2 about qian: she likes monkeys



hellow people hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha i'm damn happy. thanks to daryl this blog is screwd no more. went to watch Mamma Mia! with amanda this afternoon. it is so so so freakin nice i so so so wanna watch it again! but it's kinda dumb to pay yet another 67 bucks to watch the same thing. but still it's so nice. and towards the end it was like some sort of disco concert. the peeps sittin one row behind us are like the most loyal ABBA crazy fans i tell you! they were singing along (really loudly,i might add) to the songs and dancing in their seats. how they managed the latter part, i honestly do not know. must be some century-old family kungfu secret thing. but anyway Mamma Mia! is really really great and you guys should just go and watch it. really!! the costumes were so bling! and the voices were so huah! and watch out for this dead tall woman with serious legs that probly will reach mount everest. sweeeet man but whaha too bad she looks kinda old.

talkin about mount everest, mofo said she would get me mount everest and put it in my backyard. so i can drive up the long and winding road up the mountain and drive back down the long and winding road down the mountain everyday when im bored. what a clever idea! oh well. i love milk. and cereal. woot! daph! does that remind you of anything? UCLA? does it ring a bell? hmm? hmm? anyway neither adam nor brendan belongs to you. they said so. but they are saying so to me now. see the difference? past tense for you. present tense for me. i win!

i think i should watch the extent of my childishness. watch this space:

i only miss you on days that end with a 'y' says:
hugh grant is so...... EEEEEEEE
i only miss you on days that end with a 'y' says:
*sticks out tongue*
monstar! boys are smelly. says:
TSK
monstar! boys are smelly. says:
*pull ur tongue*
monstar! boys are smelly. says:
hahah
monstar! boys are smelly. says:
who wins?
monstar! boys are smelly. says:
me la

scary isnt it. fuck. grow up la. okay ben's touching down soon. i can feel it whaha.oh well what do i want for xmas? tell me people tell me!! i dont even know what i want. too many i guess. haiyer i dont wanna go jc. i know it's kinda scary that i'm sayin this at all but im gonna miss school. ugh. eeeeek. okay ttfn <3

boys are still smelly.

thing number 1 about qian: she wants to marry a guy who looks like chow yun fatt.


heyho! im happier now cus i went out with qian and hana and afie just now. qian took freakin donkey years to reach wheelock so i called and bluffed her that i was alone. blah when in reality hana, afie and i were munching on potato salad and chicken cheesesticks, playing this stupid game called Truth or Truth which goes like this: whoever got pointed at by the table knife (courtesy of Starbucks) gotta answer the question asked by the other players. and never ever play this game with afie cus she'll just ask stuff like "if u have a cat what will you name it" or "if ur stuck on this deserted island who will u wanna be stuck with- somebody whos not family or friend" like
... WTF?!?!?! haha but it was pretty fun cus we were so stoned and mofo-faced.

then er we went tangs beauty hall omgness i could spend a whole day there and still not get bored!! eek i love that place! then afie and mofo left me alone with qian. oh and btw monkeys are the sexiest creatures ever. read that, qian!! okay darned tired now. blah eyes are killing me i so hate dry eyes. then qian and i had hot dogs frm orange julius for dinner. seriously i think qian and i are getting a tad too bitchy. we bitch about everything and thats not a good thing. but it's becomin (or is it already) a very dangerous and highly sinful hobby.

i love God. i love qian. i love ben. i love my mom. i love my family. i love daph. i love hooyi. i love mofo. i love afie (betrayer). i am not too greedy right. ( notice it's a statement and not a question whaha! )

oh and no matter how happy i am, i still think he's a fuckin bastard who needs a serious kick in his fucking nuts (if he has any at all). i still hate guys. and boys are still smelly. ttfn <3

omg BEN'S COMIN BAQ TMR.woot WOOT woot -snort-

boys are smelly.

i dont like guys. i like men. sexy men. like hugh grant. ahhhhhhhhhhh omg shoot me im turnin into a boiled banana goin gaga over hugh grant! went for a movie with daph and she was so pissed cus it was "raining sharks and whales", as quoted from queen crank herself. but oh well it was pretty darned fun and arghh i so wanna watch it again! eek i dont mind being fat anymore..damn okay i really really do mind being fat and i just wanna lose weight but there are distractions and temptations like pizza and pringles.

this is very bad. i havent talked to him for such a long time and now we're chatting online. wtf is wrong with him?! and wtf is wrong with me?!?! i've got a very bad feeling that by doing whatever im doing im spoiling things the happy way they are. like, dude it's been almost a year and he doesnt give a damn about anything so why are you still so $@#^! just get! get what? get out! of? the whole thing. it's a WAS thing and you've got an IS thing going on. so just be happy and never look back. but still... aiya whatever la! best solution: keep off guys. boys are smelly.

oh well i was so dumb. i still am dumb i think. but sometimes this is just the way things are. always expect the unexpected-the ultimate mantra. i was just talkng to qiuru (my cousin) about it yesternight-while she was supposed to be studying but we ended up going nuts bout backstreet boys instead. anyway back to the topic: she's not any better off than me and well, we decided that it's " like that one la". oh great pete. i dont want to fuck things up this time around and if i do, i'm gonna screw myself up down left right. i just hate certain guys. question: what the shit is wrong with them? they've got the nicest girlfriends who treat them like they're Zeus-es or smth, who dont flirt around anymore, who believe that things are gonna work out this time. then those guys just gotta drop the bomb and screw things up big time by going around doing stuff that arent supposed to be done and sayin stuff that arent supposed to be said. just what the holy fuck is wrong with you! ugh cant take this no more.

okay sry was just ranting on impulse. not my fault, given the way things are and how screwd they seem to be. but then again God makes things happen for a reason. for every bad thing that happens there must be a great many thing that will happen in time to come. pfft-* gotta run for handbell. sick freak. but whaha im gonna see my MOFO finally after god-knows-how-many-hours!! ttfn <3

countdown: LANDING TOMORROW :) :) :)

i miss you

To see you when I wake up
Is a gift I didn't think could be real.
To know that you feel the same as I do
Is a three-fold, utopian dream.

You do something to me that I can´t explain.
So would I be out of line if i said
I miss you.

I see your picture,
I smell your skin on the empty pillow, next to mine.
You have only been gone ten days
But already I´m wasting away.

I know I´ll see you again
Whether far or soon.
But I need you to know that I care
And, I miss You.
(i miss you)
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

i miss you ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh I LOVE INCUBUS! omg i'm so so so so obsessed with cute geeks!!!!

countdown: 3 more days!!! :) :) :) :) :) :) :)

migraine pain

freakerbloodymoronicsonofabitchsickmotherfuckerformygranny'ssakejustgettheshitoutofhere!!!! sry just needed to give a warning message to my freakin migraine.

lots of things to type. my bro got 236 for his psle. which i guess is pretty disappointing..but considering the fact that he plays Sims and gameboy and playstation all the time, it's quite satisfactory. okay so here comes the headache. which school, dude?! i'm very sure i dont want him to end up in a co-ed school. think he's gonna put sji and cat high and vs and some other schools. BOO!!!!!!

and er chalet was creepy.VERY, in fact. but it was pretty cool. what with the phong! club haha. yanyi, mandy, jiahui and some other girl stayed up the whole night playing mahjong so we all know how prepared they are to be tai-tais. the only thing they lack now are the chunky rings and heavy bracelets. amanda is in that league too, but she didnt stay up the whole night lol. i'm not even a beginner phong!er i seriously need to train and wise up :) okay back to the creepy part. we were happily phong!ing away when we heard smth but decided to deny its existence. then pris opened the door and omgness the door of the room opposite to ours was open and the windows were closed and there was no wind and even if there was a really strong wind the door couldnt have been swung open anyway cus it's just not possible. oh great pete. we asked the peeps in the other room if they opened the door the night before and they all said no. but all of us decided that they probly forgot they opened the door anyway. never ever go stay at the chalets at biggin hill, people.

and so im havin a really irritating migraine that just will not go away no matter how nice i am to it. mr chong's comin over at 10 30 tmr morn and i havent done his stuff. so i guess i just gotta dsitract him and ask him to teach me physics. ARGH i seriously havent got time to study damnit. how the heck am i supposed to have time to study when i've got so much stuff to do?! im thinkin of taking the amath diagnostic nxt yr instead but that will be kinda disastrous cus..because la! i really really wanna do well for O's nxt year and im gonna make sure i get a single digit. whatever it takes. im swearin off guys.

anyway im done with writin the xmas cards. i need to buy a really nice one for qian. and 10 more nice ones for the others.oh well. what to do? times are bad. should just liquid paper off the messages on the cards people sent last year and send them out again this yr. whaha. oh my great pete i so wanna go taj mahal like afie argh that lucky %@#! but hongkong's fine. very fine :) as mofo says..asia's new york!! but nth can beat The Big Apple itself.

okay sry i think im stressing out. i need to study i need to study i need to study i need to study i need to study i need to study i need to study i need to study i need to study i need to study i need to study. MAKE ME FREAKIN STUDY. FREAKIN MAKE ME STUDY. argh.

pfft! haiyer- im thinkin about what to do with my life again. i dont even know what jc i wanna go to man. yilin said SA's not that fun. bern said nj's got weird waterproof uniform (how the heck u supposed to get it clean?!). crystal said tds super fun.i am so freakin sure of that, but question: how can i get in there without charring my already fried brain? my mom should just send me to mahjong school to be the ultimate phong!er. then after that comes the U prob. after that comes the Job prob. after that comes the Man prob. okay i'm steering off guys.i dont like guys. but i'm not a sexist. okay maybe i like guys. only certain guys la. like brendan frm incubus. or justin timberlake. or ashton.or yadayada okay i'm nuts about guys!

okay gonna snooze.

question: does yaoming have a girlfriend? how tall is she? ttfn <3

getting back- Episode I

mofo- fuck la mofo i miss you so so very much like a fish out of water and i love you shitloads and arghhhh go out next week la i cant take it no more

auds- yeah maybe i should do that man but then again what if the jerrys in china are super weird

san- whaha happy hols to you too! hope you had fun prancing around town :)

momma- i miss you too momma!! the last time i met you was what, aeons ago la!! sry sry sry about friday mmkay sry love ya!

brides, desserts and so much more

guys out there: indian brides are hot. get an indian bride now cus they're like the hottest dancing queens and their cobra dance is a total killah. girls out there: dont worry. we have the bhangras :) heh watched Bride and Prejudice today and it was hilarious and sexy in a bollywood way. i just love bollywood. chin chin came over from hongkong at midnight yesterday cus she's got her monthly appointment for her brace-thinggy. haha isn't her name cute!!

well she and i have grown so much closer since a few years ago when i was a kid. to tell the truth i was scared of her when i was kid, cus being the kid that i was- loved by the adults and yet irritating to my cousins, i used to go over to her house a lot. so naturally i'm like a companion to my aunt (her mom), who has nobody to accompany her save a dog called kiki cus her kids were all in the states. i was, and still am, close to my aunt and kiki. but poor kiki died of old age last year. okay back to being a kid. i wanted all the stuff that chin chin had cus she was like somebody i thought was very huahhuah! i still think that she's very huahhuah! and i wanna be like her. and so my aunt would give me all the stuff that i wanted (funky pencils and stuff) and haha thats why chinchin would always gimme The Look every term break she came home-the one that reads: damn u, kid!

i still wanna be like her. this really funky and cool and hot woman who's totally independent and enjoys life alot. she's like my shopping and eating partner. oh, and her gowns are absolutely gorgeous. and i borrowed the beautiful kebaya i wore on racial harmony day frm her. she's The Woman, man!! i got my love for jazz frm her. she plays jazz and blues a lot in her car so bingo! another reason to support the fact that she's cool: omgness she was like a new york mama! arghh!!!! but bleagh due to family-bonding-and-other reasons she moved back to indon and then well guess she got bored and now she's living in hongkong. im gonna visit her in dec i think and so yay! she's gonna take me on a good food spree. as quoted from daph, " i'm so fat i don't care about growing fat anymore " absolutely well said.

anyway..BEN CALLED again har har but luckily this time he didnt mention any weird stuff like the previous night. oh well, 7 more days and i'm definitely counting down. hear that, dude?

ate a lot of stuff today. from orchard hotel to haagen-dazs cakes divine to gelatos to the whats-it-called pizza parlor at wisma to the ya kun copycat called wang jiao (mong kok in cantonese, and chinchin said there probly isnt any wang jiao store in the real mongkok in hk. hah! loser! copy some more la!)

i wish i wish upon a falling star
i wish to wear a pair of specs
i wish to wear braces
i wish to be with him beyond forever
i wish to follow God's plan for me
i wish to have more love at heart
i wish to be more passionate about life
i wish to love my family more
i wish for my friends to know i cant do without them
i wish i wish oh man i wish

sheesh i write too much. i wanna write short stories and i think i should? i dunno la blah. ttfn <3

the look of love

The look of love
Is in your eyes. .........
A look your smile
Can't disguise.
The look of love,
It's saying so much more than
just words could ever say.
And what my heart has heard,
Well, it takes my breath away.

I can hardly wait to hold you,
Feel my arms around you.
How long I have waited,
Waited just to love you,
Now that I have found you.

I can hardly wait to hold you,
Feel my arms around you.
How long I have waited,
Waited just to love you,
Now that I have found you,
Don't ever go.
Don't ever go.
I love you so.

alarm clock rang at 9 30 and i woke up at 10 00. i want my living alarm clock back. then slacked around in front of the teevee for a bit before lunch, after which i proceed to school for the blasted handbell. and technically speaking it wasn't even a practice cus people were just..not practising. picture this: aesthetic studio. 10 over people. half of which are looking super stoned. and the other half looks super hyped. and er..bells of all sizes looking pretty (i hope) on those matresses. very cool. but anyway the walk frm the train station to school was rather interesting. first i ran into hooyi-a solitary loner walking out by herself who does not miss me or qian or anybody else. but anyway she told me about her interesting encounter with the sweet-and-demure-looking-but-hurls-KNN-CB. boy thats hilarious. in a way. then i saw some other choir girls. then the red cross peeps came along. and then there's the prefects (WHAHA!) who were like running around town doing whatever they were doing.

so we ended up talking bout the chalet during handbell. sounds pretty boring but amanda and i already came up with a plan to go snap-happy during the 3 days there :) after that i went for kickboxing and dang! that woman was crazy again, as usual. she likes to make funny noises when she's doing all the kickboxing shiat. funny as in weird funny, not haha funny. qian came over after that and we took our usual place at cafe cartel. pfft was so darned hungry i swore i could've eaten a whole cow but fortunately they don't rear cows in town.

EEEEEKKKKKKKKKKK BEN JUST CALLED OMG whaha okay like great im so happy cus of an unaccountable reason but nohow it's great news :) the bad news: he reportedly ate some weird thinggies like dog meat and scorpions and yeah you get my drift and that is like so disgusting. i'd never wanna go china.

im like having one of those Reminiscence Pangs again. -haiyer- getting so nostalgic i feel nauseous. but i really miss the idontgiveafcukabouttheworld days and acting so crazy and bitchy and gossipy and just..plain nuts about everything thats worthy to ga-ga over. we still do that sometimes but it's just different cus well we're a lil more mature now. heh.

okay switching to snooze mode. gotta be in school by 9 in the morn tmr. moronic freaks i so do not wanna wake up that early. ttfn. <3>oh btw, you-, ttfn's tata for now la haha

this magic thingamajig

eek i'm gonna start this journal proper and I, the hottest and coolest journalist NYC's gonna have, declare this journal er, published? but anyhow i'm so hyped with the design it's just so..so... NEW YORK!!!! arghh cant wait to get there one fine day. then me and my mofo's dreams will come true. will be going out with daph and hooyi in a while's time. they're probly still doing their x'mas shopping at this very minute. woot! once again qian and i beat them cus we already finished out x'mas shopping for everybody (but ourselves) yesterday. i'm still havin a migraine on what to get qian tho. i mean, i gotta find smth that really stands out for somebody like her :)

anyway qian and i were discussing on wat to get him for x'mas and we settled on smth really ego. but too bad, i dunno where to find a photo frame THAT big. ha ha. this year's x'mas presents for everybody were not as impressive in size as compared to last year's. and this is due to the fact that john little (or was it robinson's?) shove even the tiniest bit of item into a box measuring approx. the size of a ring file. well..takashimaya, being the sexier store, merely wrapped their signature pink-flowery wrapping paper tightly around the bodies of the items. so people dont blame us, lah.

went to have potato salad and cream of corn soup at pastamania yesterday with qian and pfft that reminded us of the time both of us had cod and cudn tok prople. the link? well we shared soup and ended up with cold the next day. and i actually ran a high fever and it was really exciting cus it meant that i got to skip maths and sciences and jogging session for that day! :)

okay great i'm gonna be late again. i hate being late. ttfn. <3

rough draft

entry number one. this whole thing is in a very bad shape. cus i'm so not a com geek. nor am i a html mama. oh well gotta seek help from people like shar and sasha.pokay bear with this for a while. till the experts lift their fingers on this shit. blah. <3>

second day

okay darned trashy. my bro just finished the whole tub of pringles thing arghh!! my pringles damnit. but s'ok. just means that i dont have to gain those calories. going out w qian later. where else but town out. oh well gonna act like a coupla hyped up kids and spend heaps on neoprint machines. the first in a very loooooooooong time. but whaha that should get us happy. i hate a math. tried to do some stuff that mr chong assigned but blah i give up. i'm like so not up to it. i cant do maths and sciences. cant wait for the day when i can finally just major in languages. and that will be the day potato chips swim.

i miss my mofo i miss afie i miss qian (even tho im gonna see her later) i miss hooyi i miss daph i miss ben!! i havent seen my mofo pardner and the rest of the awesomest girls in town for like EEK 5 days or thereabout. how sick is that, you tell me. blah and ben's away for 12 days and this is only the second day. and i feel like shooting myself cos argh its just plain terrible.

new york.new york.new york.new york.new york.new york.new york.new york.new york.

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