"I got chills, they're multiplyin', and I'm losin' control 
Cause the power you're supplyin', it's electrifyin' 
You better shape up, cause I need a man, 
and my heart is set on you 
You better shape up, you better understand,
to my heart I must be true 
Nothing left, nothing left for me to do 

You're the one that I want (you are the one I want),
ooh ooh ooh, honey 
The one that I want (you are the one I want), 
ooh ooh ooh, honey 
The one that I want (you are the one I want), 
ooh ooh ooh, honey 
The one I need (the one I need), 
oh yes indeed (yes indeed)"

ooh ooh ooh, honey! :D i love this song!
today i stayed home sick and did alot of work! i did my gp, econs and lit essays.
and i feel so proud of myself! cos i did all those essays.
the evening and night part of today was awesome.
i cant wait for night study tomorrow!
you're the sexiest man alive! ooh ooh ooh! <3

[le rêveur] pretty eyed, pirate smile says:
you're still the same sandra i met at the national stadium 4 and a half years ago.
only difference is, the goodness is you is shining more vividly and distinctly now

isnt that sweet

had junk food for dinner. tonight i feel like typing senseless words so i shall just type on until itunes play the end of the last song on my playlist. (i shall put aside the guilt of having not done a whole truckload of work. just for a little while.) mye's coming. i really dont want to flunk any of the subject at all. at first it seems possible. but then come to think of it im pretty hopeless at history and literature. what more econs. the whole jc thing is taking a toll on me. my cough's getting worse. i think im going to die soon. all i feel like doing now is to watch the rain and listen to some good songs. with you right there with me of course

its not because im embarrassed of our relationship, you said. like you, im confused. i dont know why im confused, because it doesnt make sense to be confused about this matter. i dont care about what the others think of me as long as i have you here with me. i dont need the world. the world has nothing good to offer me. today you told me that even if im a lesbian you'll still like me. i think thats really sweet. you made my day just by smiling. i shall never understand how i ever managed without you and your family in my life before. this is weird.

just got home. school was a-okay. had too much yongtaufoo. i love tofu! :D
mindy didnt come school today. as did kenny and dalton.
i feel so tired right now but theres still gp essay to do.
i watched an american tail just now!! i missed that show. i love cartoons.
-heart-

ive got so much to say! and yet words can only tell this much. if i could write it out in action form, i'd jump and laugh and shout and try to touch the sky and grab the stars! or maybe i'd just stare into your eyes and try to vanish inside your kiss while all i hear is my heart beating. dear God, thank You for this "better thing" that You have in store for me following that bad relationship. this feels so right.

just came back from dinner with benny and oli. ordered alot but managed to finish everything and i think im sort of hungry now. i loved the long weekend. im so looking forward to the next weekend. i got caught in the rain this morning and i was shivering all over when i walked into the church. boon's brownies are the ultimate! like super! i seriously think he should start his own brownie shop. i mean, hes like famous amos at his early business stage. you know, handing out cookies to his friends as presents. only in this case boon's handing out his brownies. the point is, BOON'S BROWNIES ARE THE ULTIMATE! and benny is gonna challenge him.

i miss sharleen. seriously. the last time i talked to her online was a long time ago, and she fell asleep on her keyboard. the last time i talked to her in real life was an even longer time ago. :(

yesterday was a very magicky day. i still cant believe it. dear God, what did i ever do to deserve him? thank You so much.

"me and you,
what a feeling."

sports carnival day today. i busted 14 bucks on cab fare and got my cheeks burnt under the sun. and yet it was really fun watching softball and ultimate frisbee and screaming "GO T5!!" seems like all the other classes have got jerseys and our class tee turned out okay. but i doubt anybody's gonna wear it again. its so thick and black. ugh. one of the guys in our senior class got hit by the softball bat. it was pretty freaky cos he was in that passing out state and the pe teacher said he might have broken his cheekbone. i mean. OW! i cant believe that pe dude brushed it off just like that. he made it sound so normal. so after the whole carnival thing we ( samu, jon, marcus, kenny, mindy, jiaxin and me) went to watch mi3 at the new cathay building. i think the new cathay place is kinda nice. and i met jiezhen in the toilet. now im tired and i dont even know why cos i didnt even play in the games.

went for lunch at subway yesterday with denise, jiaxin and mindy. nick gomes came to join us after a bit. arghh like finally! nick!! after so long!!! after that went window shopping. window shopping because i spent on that marc jacobs stam bag and i dnt wanna overspend. plus i want to prove denise jiaxin and mindy wrong. i can control my shopping.

today the clouds seem a little fluffier and the air smells a little fresher. im thinking maybe its because of you. i just cant help smiling. what a feeling.

you. -heart-

but most of all thanks to benny who made my whole 17th birthday thing a 3-nights-in-a-row-affair. :D i love benny's presents most of all! [even though i screwd up the white t shirt :( ] colourful.

saturday + sunday + monday = :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D

love = benny + uncle robert + aunty dolly + oli + mommy +
chris + jean + kailing + josh + weihan + marc + boon +
jiaxin + mindy + eli + charissa + denise + song im + taqiah +
jon + samuel + liang + peter + chris + roy + marcus + kenny? + keith + dalton +
hana + qian + daph + hooyi + geraldine + rachel + cheryl + missy + leesi + sashay + nor +
cat + andrew + sop + sharon + shyna + people i miss out on :l

3 great nights in a row = benny
cant stop thinking about = benny
i cant help smiling to myself = benny

the party thing the cell threw me was awesome! the food was really good ( the fish was super huge) and i love you guys so much! thanks so much for the super cute t shirt and paul frank slippers and the apron and the card! i ended up smelling pretty much like chocolate but hahah i dont care! you guys are the awesomest cell in the whole wide world!! :D :D :D :D

and i love t05 :D so sweet!! even though, no thanks to kenny's disgusting present. yuck. but i love my class all the same! the chocolate cake was sinfully good its like the best. no wonder charissa's mom buys it for everybody's birthdays haha! i love the debbi bear denise gave also its super cute! its knob tail is practically screaming SQUEEZ ME!

:D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D

i just got home from malaysia. i love everything about today! i love his family! i love the car ride! i love the food! i love the swim! i love the nap by the poolside! i love the dinner! i love the carrot cake the restaurant gave! i love the birthday song the guy sang! i love the present his folks got me! i love the present Part 1 he gave! i love EVERYTHING about today! i really love his family :) i cant stop smiling i feel so stupid! but what the heck! everything is wonderful now

sometimes i forget how happy you can make me. and then i thought about your smile, and just the thought of it alone brightened up my day by a lot.

so we're always doing things like this,
things like falling asleep together over the phone
singing songs even though we're both tone-deaf
laughing and being happy
with the way things are.
but do we want something more?
colourful.

this weekend is totally packed, but im not complaining :) in fact, i cant wait for friday to come! im just not looking forward to being 17. i dont want to grow up. i want to marry a boy who doesnt grow up so much too fast.

things i did over the weekend:
1. got a few horrible zits
2. got a burn
3. got a new bag and a new bra and a new cap
4. watched oth
5. laughed alot
6. late for church service
7. looked at boon's hairy toes
8. had 2 dinners in about an hour apart
9. think about homework for about 5 minutes
10. text mofo (without details)
11. woke up to a vibrating pillow cos the phone was buzzing
12. got tickled alot
13. bathed
14. went east coast
15. got wet in a white t shirt and plain bra. ugh.
16. fell asleep in the car
17. hugged
18. thought about how to make a birthday card
19. took cabs
20. hated haley
21. leaned on a shoulder
22. scream-laughed
23. watched someone fall asleep
24. got sand in my slippers
25. thought about someone till my head hurt
26. missed my mofo :(
27. thought about what a horrible week it had been to so many people
28. woke up to a hug
29. looked at pictures
30. pee alot
31. heart fluttered and i couldnt breathe for a while
32. wished ant chang a happy 17th
33. put sandy on repeat mode
34. went for cell group meeting
35. missed my girls
36. took pictures
37. made peace with mommy
38. not wanting to grow up :(
39. got scared by aloy